Wow, I was choked out like never before today. In jujitsu today, this black belt just kept finding ways to choke the living hell out of me from almost any position. And the chokes were PRETTY FREAKING DAMN effective, the kind that would make you immediately make you tap once they're applied. Man, I was left wheezing after every choke. But the other fight was better, it was with someone just slightly a couple of months my senior and I managed to choke him out one time and then after that it was all ------------------- both of us were too exhausted to seriously do any offense. And for some reason, my shoulders hurt VERY badly after that, it's still quite sore now.

These few days were pretty bad, no appetite, had that pretty depressed look on my face the whole time. I tried to have fun with my classmates, I would laugh like crazy, I would forget my present troubles but then after that, I would be reminded. Everything reminded me of her. I would tear up on bus rides, while eating, while talking to others. I don't know what Sunday will bring. I've never felt so shitty before.

Alright, anyway, went back to Bukit Panjang to collect my O levels cert and something which the school gave me for scoring 7 distinctions (yes, not lying). I was expecting a voucher or something, even a Popular voucher will be cool. OKAY, I got a freaking ugly plague (not the disease, the wooden shield thingy with name and stuff). Alright, it wouldn't look so bad if not for the horrible logo of my secondary school. The designer just threw 2 of the most clashing colours, green and red in and mashed everything up and produced something that looked roughly like what you find when you clear your sink.

Yeah, and SOME PEOPLE just plain fucking suck. They actually have the fucking cheeks to blame me after what they've done. Maybe doing a full story on it soon, not now, so tired. So afraid.